The beginning of the end – or just the end of the beginning

Last weekend was the last gasp of summer and I spent it in the garden.  Not weeding and watering, but with my fingers glued to the keyboard.  Yes, I have at last reached the end of my first draft.  My story is complete.

Well, sort of.

I’m at a surreal moment of elation and crisis.  I’m thrilled at having got this far, but keenly aware that my story is full of holes, inconsistencies and great chunks I want to change, improve and delete – and add too, I think.  There are character inconsistencies and plot weaknesses, to say nothing of the sections I first wrote a year ago that today make me curl into a ball and weep.   And that’s before I start on the inevitable adverb cull and punctuation review.

I’ve learned so much in the last 18 months, and come so far, but there’s so much still to do.

And you know, I’d love to write great huge blog posts, but what I really want is to get on with finishing my story. You understand, don’t you?

4 thoughts on “The beginning of the end – or just the end of the beginning

  1. Great to hear that you’ve finished your first draft. Even with the inevitable editing ahead, this is such a major milestone. I am excited on your behalf and I look forward to hearing how you ended it. I hope you poured yourself a large glass of something rewarding.

  2. I think I allowed myself around 30 minutes to bask in self-satisfaction, lubricated with Bombay Sapphire and a splash of tonic. After that the crisis set in. At the moment, I can’t even find 5,000 consecutive words that I’m happy with… And, by the way, I’m already rethinking the ending. A question to any proper writers out there – is this how it always is?

  3. I’m chuckling at the part where you wrote reading something you wrote a year ago now causes you to curl into a ball and weep…. doesn’t it though?? I do the same thing. Sometimes I’ll even look at my words and ask, “Who wrote this? It surely doesn’t sound like me!”
    I think you’re doing great and congratulations on working toward your dreams. 🙂

    1. Thanks for your kind words, Sue. Apologies for the late response, I’ve been away for a few days. I took the kitchen sink (cliche alert), but I left my laptop at home. Warmest wishes.

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